One thing I wanted to do in my blog this year is be more transparent. Share my struggles, my thoughts.... in addition to the lessons I am learning in my life. One area I have always struggled in, is my need to be the best at everything, and having a hard time just accepting the gifts that God has given me and being content with that.
It seems everything I did in my life, I always thought about how I must turn into a professional at it, in order to be successful. I sang.... I needed to make it in the industry.... I played the trumpet.... I needed to be in a symphony..... I acted.... I needed to be a movie/stage star...... I played softball..... i needed to play in the olympics....
I think that sometimes I feel that what I do won't matter to anyone unless I have reached what the world calls success... But wait.... I'm a christian right? I have a relationship with someone who gave their life for me..... someone who created me just the way he wanted me.....and yet.... as humans... we struggle...... but one thing is.... thankfully.... since I do know christ... he reminds me of who HE is.... and how much he loves me..... and that I don't need to worry about how the world measures success... I just need to be who he created me to be... flaws and all....
I'm learning... ever so slowly, that I need to stop... and just thank him, for what he has given me (and the gifts he has blessed others with) and know that there is a purpose to the gifts he has given me, and that as long as I am using them for him, then that is enough...and that he's given us all unique gifts and talents.....It's hard but this is something I am going to work towards this year.... just resting in his presence......and thanking him for making me.......... me!
Psalm 139:14 reads; "I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are your works, and my soul knows very well."
Jeremiah 29:13 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you. Thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Isaiah 44:24; "Thus says the Lord, your Redeemer, and He who formed you from the womb..."
Ephesians 2:10; "For we are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God has prepared beforehand that we should walk in them"
Thank you my heavenly Father!!!